On "Something"

I feel lonely, yes sometimes. Feel like something is missing. I’m almost 21 now. This is crazy. I am going to get old now. My life so far, has been something. I have been chasing this ‘something” for a while now. My mum says, I got an Allah shape hole in my heart and i need to pray more. But this “something” never goes away. I’m trying to read meditation these days. I do not know if anybody in this world know what this “something” means to everybody.

Lately I have been thinking what is something I want out of my life? Definetely not what I have.

I don’t know and it’s okay to ask questions I guess. May be life after is all that matters.Afterall, my time in this world is limited. But why do I still “something’ that does not add up. Why am I not happy with what I have?

What;s this something that my heart wants? I hope to god I’m not getting an early life crisis.