Jummah

I used to be very practising. But ever since I came abroad, something changed. I faced the reality of nature vs nurture. I did not take part i any Friday prayer, and my mum would call me and ask if I did. I feel terrible lying to her. But during this visit, I was forced to go to the mosque and during the Khutba, the imam told us how I’m going to spend a million years in hell. What kind of sick god wants to torture a person for millions of years? Definitely not a just or kind god.

"Live a good life. If there are gods and they are just, then they will not care how devout you have been, but will welcome you based on the virtues you have lived by. If there are gods, but unjust, then you should not want to worship them. If there are no gods, then you will be gone, but will have lived a noble life that will live on in the memories of your loved ones." -Marcus Aurelius

I felt disgusted to bow down to a God who is so fragile. Whose identity is dependent on me worshipping him. I do not think that if there’s a god, we need to worship him; he simply creates and takes a back seat and lets the universe play itself out. No heaven or hell is waiting for me when I die.

The current abrahamic god is not worth worshipping at all. He is not flawless. And lash out just because he could. He is misogynistic. How can a god create gender inequity? I do not. If he is flawless, those previous statements.

The current problem is that Islam does not respect individuality; sooner or later, it has to, because I do not think it is compatible with the 21st century.